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... 𝑰'𝑴 𝑵𝑂𝐴𝐻... 𝙰𝙻𝙻𝙴𝙶𝙴𝙳𝙻𝚈...
...𝐈 𝐷𝑂𝑁'𝑇 𝐿𝑂𝑉𝐸 𝐴𝑁𝐷 𝐼 𝑁𝐸𝑉𝐸𝑅 𝑊𝐼𝐿𝑳...

... 𝑫𝑰𝑫 𝐈 𝑱𝑼𝑺𝑻 𝚂𝙰𝚈 𝑆𝑂𝑀𝐸𝑇𝐻𝐼𝑁𝐺?...
...𝐎𝑯 𝚈𝙾𝒰 𝒲𝐸ℛ𝐸𝑵𝑻 𝙻𝙸𝚂𝚃𝙴𝙽𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝐀𝐆𝐀𝐈𝐍?..
...𝙷𝙼𝙼...
𝑰𝑻 𝑴𝑈𝑆𝑇 𝑯𝑨𝑉𝐸 𝑱𝑈𝑆𝑇 𝙱𝙴𝙴𝙽 𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐂𝐑𝐘 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐇𝐄𝐋𝐏.

What the fuck have I become?
I’m too smart to be this goddamn dumb,
sticking out like an unseen sore thumb.
Do I still do dope to feel something or be numb?
Doesn’t matter anymore,
the drugs are no longer any fun.

An elusive high that’s hard enough to obtain,
let alone sustain.
Mark my words friend,
someday you will go insane.
Scoff now big man,
before your reckless abandon cooks your brain.
I have an awful lot to say,
but nothing comes to mind.
I can’t access my lexicon without the meds that make my teeth grind.
I’m a guilt extract,
a distillation of regret,
a concentrate of shame,
Ashamed that everyone thinks of crystal meth as soon as someone says my name.
I designed an existence to be oh so cruel,
Oh dear physician It’d be cool if you could exercise the toxic disposition from my gene pool.
Forgive me,
I’m obsessed,
regressed,
pitiful,
and depressed.
The sun has become a flesh-burning pest.
I hiss at the thought of how long I have left to exist.
Sadness,
dread,
impales my chest,
My final breath,
will shake you with its ear-ringing silence.
That doesn’t make a lick of sense,
so you think,
but you just ain’t experienced..

𝙿𝚎𝚘𝚙𝚕𝚎 𝚍𝚘𝚗𝚝 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚒𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚍𝚘 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎, 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚍𝚘𝚗𝚝 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚙𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚎𝚗𝚌𝚎.
𝙽𝚘𝚋𝚘𝚍𝚢 𝚑𝚊𝚜 𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚗𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚎𝚗𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑 𝚘𝚏 𝚖𝚢 𝚖𝚞𝚜𝚒𝚌 𝚝𝚘 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚊𝚗 𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚊𝚕 𝚠𝚎𝚕𝚕 𝚒𝚗𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚖𝚎𝚍 𝚘𝚙𝚒𝚗𝚒𝚘𝚗.
𝙸𝚏 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚍𝚘 𝚠𝚒𝚜𝚑 𝚝𝚘 𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚗 𝚝𝚘 𝚖𝚢 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚔 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚍𝚘𝚗𝚝 𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚝, 𝙸 𝚛𝚎𝚌𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚍 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚖𝚢 𝚙𝚕𝚊𝚢𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚝 𝚗𝚊𝚖𝚎𝚍 "𝚋𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚘𝚏, 𝚝𝚑𝚞𝚜 𝚏𝚊𝚛".
𝙸𝚝𝚜 𝚙𝚒𝚗𝚗𝚎𝚍 𝚏𝚒𝚛𝚜𝚝 𝚘𝚗 𝚖𝚢 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚏𝚒𝚕𝚎

𝙸 𝚖𝚊𝚔𝚎 𝚖𝚢 𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚖𝚞𝚜𝚒𝚌 𝚟𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚘𝚜 𝚊𝚜 𝚠𝚎𝚕𝚕, 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚋𝚎 𝚏𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚍 𝚘𝚗 𝚖𝚢 𝚈𝚘𝚞𝚃𝚞𝚋𝚎.
𝙸𝚖 𝚊𝚕𝚠𝚊𝚢𝚜 𝚊𝚏𝚛𝚊𝚒𝚍 𝙸𝚖 𝚐𝚘𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚍𝚒𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚖𝚢 𝚖𝚞𝚜𝚒𝚌 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚋𝚎 𝚕𝚘𝚜𝚝, 𝚜𝚘 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚏𝚛𝚎𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚍𝚘𝚠𝚗𝚕𝚘𝚊𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚛𝚎𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚝 𝚒𝚝 𝚘𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚙𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚖𝚜.
𝙸𝚍 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚎 𝚌𝚛𝚎𝚍𝚒𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚒𝚜 𝚊𝚕𝚕.
𝙸𝚖 𝚘𝚋𝚟𝚒𝚘𝚞𝚜𝚕𝚢 𝚊 𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚎𝚛 𝚜𝚘𝚕𝚘 𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚒𝚜𝚝, 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚊𝚖 𝚘𝚙𝚎𝚗 𝚝𝚘 𝚌𝚘𝚕𝚕𝚊𝚋 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚙𝚎𝚘𝚙𝚕𝚎.
𝙰𝚕𝚜𝚘 𝚒𝚏 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚢 𝚏𝚛𝚎𝚎𝚕𝚊𝚗𝚌𝚎 𝚊𝚞𝚍𝚒𝚘 𝚘𝚛 𝚟𝚒𝚜𝚞𝚊𝚕 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚔 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚖𝚎, 𝚎𝚖𝚊𝚒𝚕 𝚖𝚎.

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